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Top 10 PAIN Songs


¬† This September 9th, Peter Tagtgren will be releasing a new PAIN album,¬†titled Coming Home.¬† Peter released a new single the other day too, called Black Knight Satellite. ¬†Interestingly, his son Sebastian Tagtgren will be the studio drummer for the new album. ¬†I didn’t even know he had a kid (Where did this homunculus of a son come from?!) ¬†I wonder whether Peter Tagtgren will take his son on tour with him as well, although I doubt it… ¬†Randomly appearing progeny aside, I thought it was fitting to celebrate the new album with the top ten PAIN songs according to moi.

The tracks below are listed in order from The Very Best to one-of-the-best, with the album in which they were first released in brackets.

  1. Just Think Again      (Psalms of Extinction)
  2. 12:42      (Rebirth)
  3. Close My Eyes      (Nothing Remains the Same)
  4. It’s Only Them ¬† ¬† ¬†(Nothing Remains the Same)
  5. Nothing      (Dancing with the Dead)
  6. Don’t Count Me Out ¬† ¬† ¬†(Dancing with the Dead)
  7. The Tables Have Turned      (Dancing with the Dead)
  8. Monster      (You Only Live Twice)
  9. I’m Going in ¬† ¬† ¬†(Cynic Paradise)
  10. Computer God      (Psalms of Extinction)

Image result for Pain Dancing With the Dead ArtHonorable mentions go to the song Tear it up from the album Dancing With the Dead and Suicide Machine from the album Rebirth.

Peering Through a Canadian Perspective

The Gravedigger’s Art: ¬†

Front Cover

This is a really great book of poems by a Canadian, Owen Hughes. ¬†I picked it up out of curiosity and enjoyed it very much. ¬†If you know the author, please let me know, I can’t find this guy anywhere online and would like to know if he has written anything else and where his career has gone. ¬†Seriously, Owen Hughes, let’s get in touch!

“Water Damage Restoration” Was Not What I Was Looking For

Did you know: is a website for a company that cleans up wet homes. ¬†It is¬†not a website about goths. ¬†I’m super disappointed. ¬†Additionally, did you know there’s a Goth Avenue in Ottawa? ¬†Spooky! ¬†And I found this dead blog of a young man recounting his experiences of being goth in the 90s, in Ottawa.

“I hate the 95. The bus drivers are always so rude, the people are always the weirdest you can find, and this bus, more than any other in Ottawa had people who don’t understand bus etiquette.
But for $1.75 at the time, we could go to the market.”

Feel free to contact me if I’ve mentioned your website!

Acting Batty!

I love the internet because you never know what you’re going to find. ¬†¬†has a short test that will, apparently, tell you what animal you are most like. It¬†claims it’s short quiz is “The Original and Most Accurate Personality Test on the Web.” Well, I’m sure Miss Briggs-Myers¬†posthumously disagrees with that…

I’m really a bat inside, by-the-way–how creepy! The description at the end of the test says I’m “a decidedly nonconformist creature.”



The 30 Day Genderqueer Challenge

  30 days, 30 posts, and 30 opportunities to dig into who I am!  Every day I aim to answer these questions, in chronological order, as best I can.  The 30 Day Genderqueer Challenge is taken from the tumblr Genderqueer Identities.

The Questions:

1) Do you use any other terms to define or explain your gender?

2) How did you grow up with your gender?

3) What’s your favorite ways of upsetting gender roles / genderbending / genderfucking?

4) Name some queer heroes, influences, or crushes

5) Dysphoria and how you manage it

6) When did you realize you were Genderqueer?

7) What are your favorite physical features of yourself?

8) An unpopular or unsure opinion about the GSM community

9) What have you done or plan to do to socially transition? Pronouns, name, coming out, etc.

10) Are you taking any steps to physically transition?

11) Your first experience with a GSM organization or event

12) Discuss your relationship with the term transgender

13) How has your family taken it or how might they take it?

14) Are you part of the Gender and Sexuality Minority community?

15) How do you deal with gendered things? Clothes shopping, bathrooms, forms, etc.

16) Name some media you connect with queerly

17) How do you, or would you, deal with being misgendered?

18) How does your gender factor in to your future plans?

19) What terms in the cisgender, GSM, or trans* community are problematic?

20) Have you faced any problems or gone through any changes regarding religion?

21) How has your relationship with yourself been affected since you realized you were Genderqueer?

22) What is your sexual and romantic orientations? Are they affected by your gender?

23) Do you feel comfortable answering questions about your gender to friends? Acquaintances? Strangers?

24) How has your relationship with the cisgender people in your life changed?

25) Your first queer crush or relationship

26) Discuss how your clothes do or don’t reflect your gender

27) Write a poem about being Genderqueer. (if you struggle, try a haiku, acrostic poem with your name, or just a stream of conciousness paragraph)

28) Who are some people in your life, on or offline, who make your life better? Your relationship doesn’t have to be related to queerness.

29) Some positive Genderqueer experiences

30) What does Genderqueer mean to you?

Feedback Made to !ndigo About Dan Savage

Update: !ndigo responded within 24 hours. ¬†Before registering my complaint, I scoured their website for any content guidelines: I found nothing. ¬†!ndigo’s customer service¬†response via email was very helpful, however:

“Stocking a certain book does not mean that we condone or promote its point of view, but having said that, there are three types of books that we will never sell:


  1. books/magazines that instruct how to build weapons of mass destruction
  2. child pornography
  3.   written material which has as its sole intent inciting people toward the annihilation of a particular group in society


Thank you again for your time and commitment to this, while I can appreciate your concerns regarding Mr. Savage the book does not violate our current guidelines regarding books we will not sell.”

And you know what? I totally agree with these guidelines.  I just wish they were available on their website, or, if they already are, the guidelines should be easier to find.


Remember¬†when I wrote this?¬†I registered my complaint via¬†Indigo’s online feedback form.¬† I eagerly await their reply!Chapters Indigo Biphobia